Victim Girl 2's Epstein Journals (4), and Exhibit "C"

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June 24, 2012
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Hillary came and she talked to me but she said to not worry about it.
She just had an impression from report that we were very rowdy
together. So then that evening she was still there and shen she
walked into the dayroom she immediately sees that [DELETE] and I were
snuggled up in a big blanket and yells at us to "stop using the same
blanket" and move to different couches. WTF! So, I move to the couch
with [DELETE] and [DELETE] starts to snuggle with me as a joke and this
lady says NOTHING even though she was looking at both of us. So
clearly she just doesn't like [DELETE] nor me, together or separate. I really
do NOT like her and think any sort of tgherapy place is NOT a good
fit for her, or maybe she needs to see someone about being such a
miserable, angry, bitter lady. That can't be healthy to just be so angry
and mean all the time. GAROSS. And then a few days later it was
family weekend and obviously I'm not going to have visitors, but they
had called me down because [DELETE] family had a gift for me. As I
am walking down the hallway, I hear a voice and I would have sworn
on anything that it was Jeffrey. It sounded IDENTICAL to him and I
was just devastated because I was certain he'd found me and I was
going to have to pay for what I did so i just completely freeze and
don't move wile frantically searching for somewhere to hide. I
quickly turn right instead of going to see what they said was



[Teddy Bear leaning against tree] I just
thought
of
something
nice ...



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I WISH YOU A LONG AND HEALTHY RECOVERY. REMEMBER
ALL THE GREAT TOOLS YOU HAVE LEARNED HERE, AND DON'T
FORGET TO USE THEM!! THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME SO MUCH
ABOUT [DELETE], I WILL TRY MY HARDEST TO KEEP LEARNING.
BE STRONG AND STAY FOCUSED!!
ALL THE BEST!
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June 24, 2012
[DELETE] family but I was convinced it was to meet Jeffrey so I tucked
myself in so tight under the table, cover my ears and the voice just
continues. The next thing I know I have staff and other girls who didn't
have family surrounding me and I had cold ice in my hand. I was
searching desparately for Miss Erin but she wasn't there and Ms. Morgan
was trying to convince me that it was safe to come out but I wouldn't
until [DELETE] finally came. Everyone was just staring at me and it was
so embarrassing and I asked [DELETE] what happened but she said that it
wasn't important to talk about. I remembered I was suppose to go see
[DELETE] so I asked [DELETE] to walk me to the door and it was a PARENT
with the same accent. I wanted to just scream. I was very quickly
okay though because [DELETE] family bought me the most lovely
stuffed animal giraffe that plays a lullaby and he moves his head! I
was so happy and humbled they would think to get me something so
nice that I loved. So that was a positive that happened and I have
him right next to me and I never, ever want to let him go. I talked
more with [DELETE] and told her about the terminations and she cried and
I wasn't sure how to handle that because I wasn't sure if she was
mad at me or sad but I hugged her and she hugged back so tight.
I don't think that helped me though. They say getting things out
will help but that part only made me feel like a monster. My
birthday is coming up and everyone is preparing. They've never
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Thinking about you ...



At least once a day ...



[DELETE]! Beautiful [DELETE]. You are one remarkable
human bein. I have never met anyone with as much
love and compassion as you. When y ou smile it not
only makes my day, but fills my heart. Your
composity [capacity] to learn and take in the knowledge
your experiences that you have bein threw [been through] are
what make you who you are today. You are
a Strong, Inspiring woman that gives me
more & more hope to succeed in whatever
I put my heart to. Just getting to know
you, as a person and what you have
gone threw [through] reasures [reassures] me to strive for
whatever I will put my heart to. As you
can see I'v [I've] changed colors. He He
anywase [anyways] I just want to say you
mean so much to me, and I truley [truly]
believe you will succeed in whatever
life brings you. I love you Inside and
Out. xoxoxo your's truly
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Wishing
you
a sunny day,
a cheerful heart ...



My beautiful [DELETE]
I'll never be able to find the words to express how
much you mean to me. I feel like I've known you
for years and years -- you're my sister, my
best friend. I don't ever want you out of
my life and I will do everything in my power
to ensure that won't happen.
You are such a beautiful person in every way
and I will miss you more than you know.
You are so much stronger than you give
yourself credit for, my darling, and you
can overcome your struggled if you put in
the effort.
I'm so excited to become a part of your
life -- to visit you in [DELETE] to meet your
kids, to have disney adventures. This is just
the beginning of a strong and lasting
friendship.
I love you, always and always.
[heart pix] [DELETE]



My birthday has come and went and I think this has been
the best birthday ever! I got to talk to these boys of mine and
I miss them so much. Jon reminds me all the time though that
I can't go into the real world with unrealistic ideas and says
I have to remember the reality that comes with two little boys,
and that it isn't easy and not always fun even when I've missed
them. It's better to be prepared for the stress, which I do always
keep in mind. The nurses allowed me to be the last one to wak
up and when they came to wake me up for vitals, they sang
happy birthday and gave me cards! EVERYONE wore rainbow
and I wore a rainbow tutu. At every meal they did happy
birthday and when I went to the dayroom it was the most
AMAZING scene! Everyone came together after lights out and
decorated the dayroom for me. And everyone gave me cards
and even gifts! I didn't have any words! I had to use my
last notebook to be able to put everything in. It was magical
and something I'll never, ever forget. AND I DID IT! I made
intentional eye contact! UGH! It doesn't have to be
perfect! But soooo annoyed. I need to slow down. I made my
first intentionally eye contact and so many people saw and cried.
And poor Jon was so upset because it wasn't with him despite the
many weeks of the dog card, but it was with Miss Erin, after I
had an absolute melt down over the meal room being changed.
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I'm going to miss you so much you truly
made this 5 weeks go fast for me. Love it how
your always so happy. I don't forget you always
put a smile on my face. I don't want you to
lose hope. Just remember how far you have come,
from my first week I was here when you were
in the staff dinning room till now on your
birthday & you out eating with everyone
else. Don't give up faith. I know you can
do it. Just think of your boys. So
Happy Claps for you.
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Facebook



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I just want to tell
you ... I love you!
Best friends forever!
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Wow! Being here with you at
[DELETE] has been an awesome
journey. You are such a sweet
woman and I admire your
fun personality and great
sense of humor. Being suite
mates with you was such a
joy. Thank you for teaching
me to speak jibberish. I love
it. Also, thank you for
being such a positive
role model and ray of
sunshine. You are amazing
and will accomplish great things.
Stay strong and fight through
to the end. You Rock!
Love, [DELETE]



July 7, 2012
I wanted to end yesterday happy, as I didn't want to
ruin the magic of my birthday. I've been having staff
sign this book in the perverse order because I'm not sure
when my last day will be. To think my time here will be
ending soon is bittersweet. I am so excited to get home and
see the boys and Jen but I will miss everyone here so much.
Miss Erin gave me her beautiful bracelet and I don't think
I'll ever take it off. She's the best and promised we would stay
in touch. I made her promise until 108 years old and we
pinky swore. I met my goal of connecting with a staff
member and I told her everything. She is safe and I know it
will be safe with her. She said as long as I'm wearing her
bracelet. I am safe to now write the trauma in here. I
don't need to be detailed but for me to process and understand.
She doesn't think I have a full understanding and thinks
one day I'll need and want to process it with a grown up
when and if I am ready but she wouldn't explain the things
she felt I didn't understand. I promised I would do that as
soon as she left and so I know I must do it before she gets
back for lights out. I'm not sure how to do this but I'll do
my best and if I did it wrong I'm sure she'll say something.
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Don't ever give up! You are so much stronger
than you think you are. Whenever you
are upset and don't feel like you can
talk to someone, remember what I
would tell you! Remember to hold on
to one of your stuffed animals, like
your bear, color a picture, work
on your journal, listen to music, or
even write a note to me expressing
all of your feelings. You are a
beautiful person both inside and
out. Let your smile shine, but
don't ever feel like you have to
pretend everything is ok. You have
a great support system around
you. And don't be afraid to trust
other staff members; sometimes
they'll surprise you! I will see you
soon, before you know it. Have an
absolutely wonderful birthday!!!
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July 7, 2012
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How in the hell am I suppose to have "radical acceptance"
of these things? It's a horror story that I survived. Why was
I allowed to survive? Am I a monster? I wish Miss Erin would
hurry up and come back because I don't know how to radically
accept the unacceptable. I don't know if Ghislaine should be in
there. [DELETE] and Miss Erin thinks so, Carrie thinks so but
what am I missing? Why won't Miss Erin say? I'm going to
ask as soon as she returns. I don't want to radically accept, I
want to know why. What could I possibly learn from this?
A priest! I planned that out so well. He couldn't talk or tell.
He is supposed to be good. Why? I need to go find Miss Erin
and ask for medication.



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Dearest [DELETE]
It's hard to even know where to begin! You are such a kind,
caring person, and I am so grateful to be your friend!Q
You are so positive and you always make me smile!
I am so amazed by how strong you have been throughout
this process. You have handled even some of the most
alarming circumstances SO incredibly well! I am truly proud
of how hard you work every day and how determined
you have been since day one. I hope that one
day you can see how WONDERFUL you are. I absolutely
adore you, and know your boys are lucky to have
such an amazing mom. I know the journey hasn't
be so easy thus far, but I have so much hope for
your future! We are learning how to let go of
self-destruction and find the freedom to LIVE. And
that is my prayer for you, that you will truly know
how WORTHY, VALUED, LOVED, & TREASURED you are.
You are a gift to this world, my friend, you must
start believing that to be true. I love you dearly, and
hope we will continue to remain friends & be there for
each other outside of [DELETE] because our goodbyes from
here are NOT and end ... rather they are just the beginning of
the rest of our lives. Please be good to yourself. I care about
you too much to watch you/let you continue to hurt yourself.
It's time you start giving yourself the same care you
so graciously give to others.
With love,
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July 8, 2012
I have been so messed up but everyone has been doing
everything possible to cheer me up. [DELETE] is gone. So many
people being discharged and I don't want to leave any
time soon. I don't feel ready. I mean I do with eating, I
won't put my recovery in danger but I can't radically
accept. Jon and Miss Erin assured me they'd find a team
back home to help me but do I even deserve help unraveling
all of that? I feel so stressed out and overwhelmed and I
have so many questions. No one is safe outside of here so how
will I ever understand if I have to keep the promise. Miss
Erin says that was a bad promise but it's all so confusing.
I don't think I will write more, I think I've fulfilled the
assignment and won't have time once I return home and
have to go back to school, work, and having the boys. The
rest of my time I want to spend with all the amazing
people here, both staff and patients who I will miss beyond
words. I've learned so much here and I will FOREVER be
grateful. My last goal will be to have Miss Erin come to VA
to be my counselor! Well, I can only hope. I've learned
some grown ups are safe, good, and moral, but you have to
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My Amazing [DELETE],
You have touched my life in
so many ways. You never cease
to amaze me! You are the sweetest,
smartest, most intelligent, and
most beautiful [DELETE] girl (woman)
I have EVER met. You have such a
passion for life that inspires
me each and everyday. I can't
help but smile when I see you
and when I'm with you because
you make me so happy. I feel
so blessed and lucky to have
met you. You are so dear to my
heart and truly are an angel
in my life! I believe in you with
ALL MY HEART and I know you
can do this. I hope & pray we will
always keep in touch. Please promise
me that you will always keep
fighting and NEVER EVER give up.
I will ALWAYS be here for you NO
MATTER WHAT. I love and adore
you so very much!
Always, [DELETE]
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Emory, TX 75440 email: [DELETE] @ aol.com
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Words cannot express how much you have touched my life. You
are absolutely beautiful inside and out. It hurts my heart when you
tell me stories of things that have happened to you in the past. Please
know that I find you to be incredibly bright and articulate. You are
truly an amazing person. I really hope we can stay in touch once
I leave. Try to keep in mind that your past, while it is a part of
you, it is not YOU. You have the ability to do anything. I
believe you will change the lives of so many people. I'm glad
we got to be roommates, even though it was just for a couple
of nights. I'm sad I'll miss your birthday, but I will be
thinking about you all day and your rainbow dress. You
make me smile even just thinking about you! You are
my sunshine, and I'll never forget the kindness and love
you've shown me. Thank you.
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HELLO KITTY
IT'S A WONDERFUL DAY

The most destructive habit ... Worry
The greatest joy ... Giving
The greatest loss ... Self-respect
The most satisfying work ... Helping others
The ugliest personality trait ... Selfishness
The greatest cure ... Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome ... Fear
The most effective sleeping pill ... Peace of mind
The most crippling failure ... Excuses
The most powerful force ... Love
The worst thing to be without ... Hope
The deadliest weapon ... The Tongue
The two most power-filled words .. "I can"
The greatest asset ... Faith
The most worthless emotion ... Self-pity
The most beautiful attire ... Smile
The most prized possession ... Integrity
The most contagious spirit ... Enthusiasm



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You are so beautiful. I admire your strength,
courage and dedication. You are truly an inspiration to
me. I wish you all the happiness in the world.
You deserve the best life has to offer. I am so proud
of you. I feel so lucky to have met you and
you will always hold a special place in my heart.
Never give you [up?] and reach for the stars.
With love,
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facebook: [DELETE] cell: [DELETE]
email: [DELETE] address: [DELETE]
Charlotte, NC 28210
May love & laughter light your day!
and warm your heart & home.
May good & faithful friends be yours.
Wherever you may roam.
May peace & [ILLEGIBLE] [ILLEGIBLE] your world
with joy that long endures.
May all life's passing swoons bring
the best to you & yours!



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One great big hug.



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Ur the sweetest person
I ever met you are so cute
& I love your pinks
hair & accessories you are
absolutely adorable I'm
so glad
I met you & that
you liked my Hello Kitty &
Girafe picture & I know
you weren't laughing at me
in group, [DELETE] farts are
funny. LOL
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email: [DELETE]
cell: [DELETE]



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I chose a late time to get to know you because I have to leave soon, but
ast least we have a week left! I don't know much about your past but I
know we've been in similar situations. I want to help you so you can stop
hurting yourself because I know how deep your pain runs. I struggle with
similar issues but together we can overcome them. You are such a
beautiful woman! Don't you ever forget that and don't ever
let anyone tell you otherwise. I'm always
here if you need to talk.
I [heart pix] LOVE YOOOUUU!!! [heart] always
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[DELETE] You are so beautiful! I hope
you realize that every single day.
I have so much faith in you because
you have so much you can give to
this world, and to your family! You're
so smart, and such a sweetheart, and
I hope for nothing but the best
for you! Please keep going strong
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Find me on Facebook!



Thinking of you ...



Dear Miss [DELETE]
Thank you so much for all your words
and for teaching me how to work
with someone [DELETE]. I have
had a truly wonderful time getting to
know you. I hope you learn to see the
beauty within yourself, for you are an
absolutely lovely person inside and out.
I hope you continue working to keep
yourself safe and healthy. I know you
have the strength to grow, you only
need to let yourself blossom. I will
remember you forever, until I am 103
(and maybe even a little longer after
that).
Sincerest Wishes for a Beautiful Future
Maya
and Buddha

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Princess [DELETE]
I think you are awesome.
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[Heart] ya.



Dear [DELETE]
I don't even know where to start!
I love you so much and I love listing [listening]
to your wonderful storries. You are just
a really enjoyable person to be around,
whenever I'm sad I just go and
talk to you and you make me smile.
I love hearing about your boys they seem
so cool just like their mamma. I
love coloring with you to! [too!] And I
love how much you love Hello Kitty!
You are so sweet and kind and
I love you!
Love,
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"Sometimes you hate the things that are
happening to you, when actually, God
is adding to them lots of blessings
and good that are beyond your
perception and imagination"
[Heart] You!
[Star] You are a shinning star!



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Hi Pretty Lady!
I just want to tell you how wonderfully special
you are to me you have made my day so many times
without even trying. You are so beautiful, caring,
lively, sweet, and lovely. You radiate happyness.
I know you have been struggeling, but you have
done wonderfully in treatment. Know that I always
and forever here for you no matter what keep
up the good job you have patrayed [portrayed].
I love you so very much.
xoxo
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email - [DELETE]
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Whenever I'm going through
a tough time,
I try meditating.



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You are so special and I am so glad I got to
know you. Although it may be difficult
at times to go through recovery ... it is
something that will make us stronger. You
will win this battle. Never give up!
[DELETE] need you very much. Keep
up the good work. Good luck with everything.
Love ya lots,
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[DELETE] my love,
I love you so unbelievably much!
You've brightened my days so much.
I always enjoy talking to you and
hearing about your sons. You're so smart
and strong. Keep pushing through love.
I know you can do this. Keep that
beautiful smile on your face, babe.
You're seriously so cute and I love
your obsession with Hello Kitty.
I would relaly love to see you outside
of here. Please keep in touch and
text me once you get out of here!
Love
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Sebastian Fl. 32958
I LOVE YOU
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June 1, 2012
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I want you to know how special
and beautiful you are to me. Every day
seeing you smile puts a smile on my
face. I'm so blessed to have gotten the
chance to get to know you and get the
chance to become close to you.
You are a beautiful person inside and
out. I love you so much. Always love yourself
and always believe in yourself. You
deserve it.
Let's make a promise to one another
to always keep intouch.
Facebook: [DELETE]
Address: [DELETE]
Weston, FL 33327
#: [DELETE]
[heart] always, [DELETE]



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I want you to always remember what a very
special person you are. No matter what anybody
has told you in the past or will tell y ou in the
future, you are beautiful, smart, funny, caring,
and having an absolutely amazing spirit! I want
to thank you because I have truly learned so much
from you not only about Autism but also about
really connecting with someone. Also, you have
given me the most beautiful piece of art ever.
It really means so much to me [DELETE] because
it represents my work and makes me feel like
I have made an impact on someone's life,
which means more to me than I can even
describe. I can't wait to see it in the calendar!
I don't want you to give up [DELETE]! You deserve
to live a wonderful, happy life with your adorable
little boys and they deserve an amazing and
healthy mom to always be there for them!
Be good! Take care of yourself! And no more owies!
I don't want to have to worry about you!
[heart] Miss erin
"Stand tall, stand proud.
Know that you are unique and magnifiunt [magnificent].
You do not need the approval of others."
-- Jonathan Lockwood Huie